Boy, boy, boy...another day in the life of Stacy, I am seriously considering writing a book...my friend Brandie always says, "Listen for the whisper, or wait for the brick." I am tired of gettin hit with the brick! I really try hard to listen for God's whisper, for his gentle nudge to keep me in line and on the right track. I pray to make the right choices and I LISTENNNNNNNNNNN really hard..sometimes nothing and sometimes I hear the voices..I guess I was listening to the WRONG VOICES AGAIN! Because WHAM..that brick blindsided me...Mary Mary has a song on their new CD..it talks about this..and their answer is to "keep on runnin because walkin wont get it." Even though I got whacked with the brick, I have to keep seeking Him and what He wants for me. This is hard..sheesh..Love knocks me down and I get back up, Life knocks me down and I get back up, God whacks me with the brick and all I can do is shake it off and pray for as little dain bramage as possible..be patient God, I'm hard headed but I'm not made of steel.
...until next time!
Monday, July 27, 2009
I Am...hurt beyond words
It never ceases to amaze me how a good woman like myself..one who is intelligent, kind, caring, compassionate, keeps a clean house, cooks, takes care of her kids, goes to church and treats her man like a king, has her kindness taken for weakness. Men wonder where the good women are? We are right here under ur nose..but by necessity have our protective walls up because 99% of men we run into lie, cheat and steal our hearts with no remorse. I am a hopeless romantic, but I am not fool. And saying I Love You doesnt make it so, nor does it make everything go away. We want to love and be loved just like you. We get lonely, but never will I allow that to compromise my standards in who I am and what I want out of a man and life for that matter. Even as I am broken hearted and disappointed in what life brings me through, I am more than I was yesterday. "Today may not be my day, but theres always tomorrow."
Monday, July 6, 2009
I Am..Stumped
You have heard the quote, " If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."...ok..I let them go and they came back..now what? where do we go from here?
Now of course sometimes there are the ones that you let go and they need to stay gone...but when u love that person it seems 10 times as hard to let them go again. What do you do when this person resurfaces and you have to walk away again?..It doesnt hurt any less..re-opens old wounds..drags up old feelings..but how do u know if they are back because this was "love returned". Whats the test?
...well after a couple days of searching...theres still no answer..life is full of unknowns..all u can do is play things out day by day. Thats how I'm playin my life right now anyway. Some say follow ur heart and if its meant to be things will fall in place..some say let it go and keep it movin..I like to have a plan but of course some things cant be planned..my life is good and I am grateful..what more can a girl ask for...
....until next time!
Now of course sometimes there are the ones that you let go and they need to stay gone...but when u love that person it seems 10 times as hard to let them go again. What do you do when this person resurfaces and you have to walk away again?..It doesnt hurt any less..re-opens old wounds..drags up old feelings..but how do u know if they are back because this was "love returned". Whats the test?
...well after a couple days of searching...theres still no answer..life is full of unknowns..all u can do is play things out day by day. Thats how I'm playin my life right now anyway. Some say follow ur heart and if its meant to be things will fall in place..some say let it go and keep it movin..I like to have a plan but of course some things cant be planned..my life is good and I am grateful..what more can a girl ask for...
....until next time!
Thursday, July 2, 2009
I AM..The Sound
Sometimes I feel stirred to write about certain topics not knowing where it will lead me..but then again, that's the awesome part. I was listening to my new Mary Mary cd..popped it in and the in the first track they define "sound". I felt God tellin me that I AM THE SOUND. Most of the time I dunno what these little nuggets mean. But I have been listening to Israel Houghton's cd lately too and he has a song called the Power of One..all of this together tells me this..(some quoted from the songs)..Israel says, it takes one person to start a revolution...so essentially...it just takes one movement to stir the air and send the vibration to make the sound of change..
define: sound-noun-the sensation produced by stimulation of the organs of hearing by vibrations transmitted through the air or other medium.
define: change-verb-to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone.
define: revolution-noun-1) a radical and pervasive change in society and the social structure, esp. one made suddenly and often accompanied by violence. 2) a sudden, complete or marked change in something.
As I take all this in, I think about who I am and who I was..and ultimately who I will be. I have always been the type of person who creates my own rules and sets my own trends...a leader not a follower. In the not so distant past, some of my not so good characteristics defined me and how people knew me..but I've changed..I'm not sure what "new revolution" I'm supposed to start, but I know God is preparing me.
One thing I have learned is that being the medium is only one step, you have to find the "ear" on the other end ready to receive it..what good is it to carry this awesome message, only for it to fall on deaf ears...keep ur senses tuned to the know the difference..
Many times in my life I have felt this stirring..almost anxious hunger before God moves..it almost feels like I am gonna jump outta my skin..lol..(anyone who has ever felt this knows what I am talkin about..and maybe if u didnt know now u do..) ..the craziest part is that even though I dont know which step to take...God brings this peace and shows me the way because I continually seek Him...as long as I keep seeking I will find myself and who I am in Him..and He says that I AM THE SOUND and it is SO!
....until next time!
define: sound-noun-the sensation produced by stimulation of the organs of hearing by vibrations transmitted through the air or other medium.
define: change-verb-to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone.
define: revolution-noun-1) a radical and pervasive change in society and the social structure, esp. one made suddenly and often accompanied by violence. 2) a sudden, complete or marked change in something.
As I take all this in, I think about who I am and who I was..and ultimately who I will be. I have always been the type of person who creates my own rules and sets my own trends...a leader not a follower. In the not so distant past, some of my not so good characteristics defined me and how people knew me..but I've changed..I'm not sure what "new revolution" I'm supposed to start, but I know God is preparing me.
One thing I have learned is that being the medium is only one step, you have to find the "ear" on the other end ready to receive it..what good is it to carry this awesome message, only for it to fall on deaf ears...keep ur senses tuned to the know the difference..
Many times in my life I have felt this stirring..almost anxious hunger before God moves..it almost feels like I am gonna jump outta my skin..lol..(anyone who has ever felt this knows what I am talkin about..and maybe if u didnt know now u do..) ..the craziest part is that even though I dont know which step to take...God brings this peace and shows me the way because I continually seek Him...as long as I keep seeking I will find myself and who I am in Him..and He says that I AM THE SOUND and it is SO!
....until next time!
I AM Back!
Well...I have been on a bit of a sabbatical and finally feeling the need to write again....its time to get all this crap outta my head and on paper(so to speak)..since i wrote i last i have been grindin away at school..spring semester i busted out with 3.6 GPA( i wasnt happy with that but ..)..and im takin 2 algebra courses this summer..overall i like school..just wanna finish as fast as possible so i can get a job in a field that i enjoy more than real estate..i miss my kiddos..they are stay with their dad during the week so while im grateful because im exhausted at the end of the day..i miss emmmmm!..over these last few months i have still continued to work on myself and my walk with God..truely tryin to see what my purpose is and how to be the best ME that i can be..while i fall short everyday..i do what i can to start fresh the next..life is good and I couldnt ask for more...
..im sure i wont have time to blog as often as i like, but keep an eye out for me...hehehe...see ya soon!
..im sure i wont have time to blog as often as i like, but keep an eye out for me...hehehe...see ya soon!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
25 random things about me
25 random things about me
1.) The first thing I notice about people is their teeth.
2.) I like to sleep with my feet stickin out from under the covers.
3.) I have a split personality (some people already know that).
4.) I refuse to split the pole when walking with someone.
5.) People have a tendency to stalk me for no reason.
6.) I could eat cereal every meal of everyday.
7.) I have a pretty persuasive smile. *maybe that’s why people stalk me?*
8.) I am a reformed tomboy.
9.) I have a phobia of public restrooms.
10.) I am a CSI junkie.
11.) I wish I could tie a cherry stem with my tongue.. I also wish I could juggle..lol
12.) I have a tendency to say “GIRL!” even when I’m talking to a guy.
13.) I sing in the choir at my church and LOVE IT!
14.) I miss my mama.
15.) I have a super sensitive nose! I smell stuff no one else smells..not always fun.
16.) I feel sorry for people who live life without a purpose.
17.) I can’t stand people who smack when they chew!
18.) I am secretly a hopeless romantic.
19.) I look forward to full moons.
20.) I would have more kids if I were rich and didn’t have to be pregnant.
21.) I am always on yahoo messenger.
22.) I found out thru an evaluation test that I think equally with both sides of my brain which makes me more conflicted with myself..what the heck?!
23.) I don’t like people who drive slow..dont they know I got somewhere to GO!
24.) I am a text addict. I send over 6000 texts a month. (The first step is admitting you have a problem).
25.) Last but not least, I love Barack Obama!
1.) The first thing I notice about people is their teeth.
2.) I like to sleep with my feet stickin out from under the covers.
3.) I have a split personality (some people already know that).
4.) I refuse to split the pole when walking with someone.
5.) People have a tendency to stalk me for no reason.
6.) I could eat cereal every meal of everyday.
7.) I have a pretty persuasive smile. *maybe that’s why people stalk me?*
8.) I am a reformed tomboy.
9.) I have a phobia of public restrooms.
10.) I am a CSI junkie.
11.) I wish I could tie a cherry stem with my tongue.. I also wish I could juggle..lol
12.) I have a tendency to say “GIRL!” even when I’m talking to a guy.
13.) I sing in the choir at my church and LOVE IT!
14.) I miss my mama.
15.) I have a super sensitive nose! I smell stuff no one else smells..not always fun.
16.) I feel sorry for people who live life without a purpose.
17.) I can’t stand people who smack when they chew!
18.) I am secretly a hopeless romantic.
19.) I look forward to full moons.
20.) I would have more kids if I were rich and didn’t have to be pregnant.
21.) I am always on yahoo messenger.
22.) I found out thru an evaluation test that I think equally with both sides of my brain which makes me more conflicted with myself..what the heck?!
23.) I don’t like people who drive slow..dont they know I got somewhere to GO!
24.) I am a text addict. I send over 6000 texts a month. (The first step is admitting you have a problem).
25.) Last but not least, I love Barack Obama!
Monday, January 12, 2009
I am...Finding My Voice
well everyone...i know its been a hot minute since i posted..holidays..kids..work..sick family..and gettin enrolled in school have kept me busy..i am pleased to say that i am now enrolled for classes and begin next week..pray for ya girl because i am takin 10 hours..im also leading a team at church for the Fit and Free in 2009 Challenge so u will be hearing alot about that too...todays topic is from yesterdays message by Pastor Randy Free...we all want new and better things for 2009 so im tryin to do it RIGHT!..as i find myself and define who i am..i am becoming clearer on Gods plan for me..
I ready for My Breakthrough...here are the 4 steps he spoke on...
1) Faith 2) Extreme Obedience 3) Struggle/Fight 4) Supernatural Intervention
1) Faith-Hebrews 11:1-35 is the gold mine of faith examples..
11:1 - Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. NKJV
OR Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. NIV
in order for it to be seen in the physical realm it has to be spoken or written down...write down ur visions and goals for the year...i am believing God for a lot of things this year...God is faithful!
2) Extreme Obedience - ok this is where i suck..i know what i need to do..yet i DONT do it..ugh..heres a good reference for that problem..lol.. Romans 7:19 -For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing...God is waiting for us to be obedient to what He asks of us..He gives us small tests to see if we can be trusted with what He gives us..then he does more..if God gives us a dollar and we waste it, why would He give us a hundred..the blessings will multiply once u obey..u never know if ur ONE step of obedience away from a breakthru..the people of the bible mentioned in Hebrews were obedient because they were faithful...they believed God for the next step even before they took it..thats extreme for a lot of us..
3) Struggle/Fight - with the good comes the bad...there will be times that make u wanna say FORGET IT..i was in that place last week when i was tryin to register for school..Deuteronomy 20:4 For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory. God didnt put it in my heart to go back to school just to have me give up or even fail for that matter. When all else fails STAND! Stand firm and against natural impossibility and He will bring u thru it..my biggest struggle is getting distracted..i have so much goin that needs to be done..things get left undone..but i know that is satan and not God..so if this happens, keep ur head in the game and stay committed!
4) Supernatural Intervention - I love this one.."against ALL ODDS"..dont forget..this is what Gods whole business is based on..God wants to work thru u for His glory..supernaturally..when theres absolutely NO explanation for it..its God u can believe that! understand that this comes after the other 3 steps..my thoughts are..this is grand prize!..u earn it..its not just handed out to every Joe Schmoe..otherwise..it would lose it awesomeness..God can do it for whom ever He choses..heal the sick..raise the dead..show a zero balance when u know u didnt pay it (i had this happen)..remain faithful..obey what He tells u..keep fighting the good fight..and God will show up and SHOW OUT!
Day by day i'm more confident..coming out of my comfort zone.. steppin out and into my destiny..its time to speak up and claim whats mine in 2009..today I AM FINDING MY VOICE!
...until next time
I ready for My Breakthrough...here are the 4 steps he spoke on...
1) Faith 2) Extreme Obedience 3) Struggle/Fight 4) Supernatural Intervention
1) Faith-Hebrews 11:1-35 is the gold mine of faith examples..
11:1 - Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. NKJV
OR Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. NIV
in order for it to be seen in the physical realm it has to be spoken or written down...write down ur visions and goals for the year...i am believing God for a lot of things this year...God is faithful!
2) Extreme Obedience - ok this is where i suck..i know what i need to do..yet i DONT do it..ugh..heres a good reference for that problem..lol.. Romans 7:19 -For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing...God is waiting for us to be obedient to what He asks of us..He gives us small tests to see if we can be trusted with what He gives us..then he does more..if God gives us a dollar and we waste it, why would He give us a hundred..the blessings will multiply once u obey..u never know if ur ONE step of obedience away from a breakthru..the people of the bible mentioned in Hebrews were obedient because they were faithful...they believed God for the next step even before they took it..thats extreme for a lot of us..
3) Struggle/Fight - with the good comes the bad...there will be times that make u wanna say FORGET IT..i was in that place last week when i was tryin to register for school..Deuteronomy 20:4 For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory. God didnt put it in my heart to go back to school just to have me give up or even fail for that matter. When all else fails STAND! Stand firm and against natural impossibility and He will bring u thru it..my biggest struggle is getting distracted..i have so much goin that needs to be done..things get left undone..but i know that is satan and not God..so if this happens, keep ur head in the game and stay committed!
4) Supernatural Intervention - I love this one.."against ALL ODDS"..dont forget..this is what Gods whole business is based on..God wants to work thru u for His glory..supernaturally..when theres absolutely NO explanation for it..its God u can believe that! understand that this comes after the other 3 steps..my thoughts are..this is grand prize!..u earn it..its not just handed out to every Joe Schmoe..otherwise..it would lose it awesomeness..God can do it for whom ever He choses..heal the sick..raise the dead..show a zero balance when u know u didnt pay it (i had this happen)..remain faithful..obey what He tells u..keep fighting the good fight..and God will show up and SHOW OUT!
Day by day i'm more confident..coming out of my comfort zone.. steppin out and into my destiny..its time to speak up and claim whats mine in 2009..today I AM FINDING MY VOICE!
...until next time
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